He warned that it might take "a month or so" for the Archdeacon's reply. He added a couple of sentences, referring to himself as "the incumbent", a word I had not heard before It was now early July. I had referred to my mother's tragic life, mentioning the early deaths of her father, little brother (when she was three) and two sons. In the end I put "Dear Archdeacon".The Rector approved my letter. (I found myself thinking of the Noel Coward song about "double damask dinner napkins".) Pat looked up in an old secretary's handbook to see how one should formally write to an archdeacon It was "Venerable Sir". I could draft a letter, which he would approve, seeking further permission to investigate my father's grave, to see if it was "double-dug". Pat and I were not keen to wait till she died for my father's grave to be dug.
Were we supposed to be put her body on ice while we waited for the church's weighty deliberations to bear fruit? The Rector said that I should write to the Archdeacon. After I left my brother's grave I felt absurdly pleased that he was lying next to a young woman of his own age.Meanwhile, the saga of my mother's future burial continued. Linda had died in 1978, only a few months after my brother and, like my brother, she was born in 1953. He said it wasn't allowed.I had assumed that Linda was her sister, but when I looked more closely at the inscription I realised with a shock that she was her daughter. A couple of Christmases ago, she said, she was about to go to Canada for several weeks. She'd asked the Rector if she could put fake flowers on the grave of "my Linda" as she wouldn't be able to replace the real flowers during that time.
She thought you could get some sort of special cleaner in a hardware shop. A lady was placing a vase of red carnations on the grave next to his I plucked up courage to ask her how to clean the headstone. I noted that "headstones in the shape of a heart or a book are not permitted".On that day in December 1998, I had visited the grave of my second brother, who had died of an overdose aged 24. "If evidence is found of the existence of the grave of Commander Segrave at a depth of less than four feet approximately then it would be necessary to close the grave again and to make alternative arrangements for the second burial."He enclosed a booklet of church rules, which had a long section on what type of headstones and inscriptions were allowed.
The Rector pointed out, in his next letter, that there was little space on my father's headstone for a further inscription, "which often indicates that the grave is a single one".A further option, which he thought should not be put into action until my mother actually died, was for my father's plot to be carefully dug. I tried, with the help of Pat, who looks after my mother, to find out who the funeral directors were, but we failed.I was invited to send the Rector pounds 25 to stick a rod into my father's grave, to ascertain if it was double. Due to the unevenness of the ground, the result was inconclusive. He suggested that I find out which funeral directors had been involved with my father's burial and ask them this question.I was only 24 when my father died. The only possible way, I was told, would be if my father's grave was double and she could fit in with him.
I added that I hoped that my mother could be buried there.My mother, it turns out, may not.I received a letter from the Rector saying that it would not be possible if my mother had `lived out of the parish for some considerable time' (she had left the area when she married my father in 1948). I wrote to the Rector, whom I had never met, to ask whether there was a map, since the churchyard is quite large and my relations' plots are scattered. Her father was killed in Flanders in 1915, but he does have a plaque at the back of the church. During a visit I made in December last year, I had difficulty finding my little brother's grave. She particularly wanted to be near her eldest son, my brother, who was drowned aged five, alongside her younger son, her husband, her brother, her aunt, her grandfather and her great-grandfather. MY MOTHER has always taken a great interest in graves. She has been a churchgoer all her life, and has always taken care of the family plots, driving over regularly to see that the headstones were cleaned She gave donations. She even took photographs of my father's grave a few hours after his burial; although my grandmother and I thought this a bit odd.